koped this off kenneth's blog. haha.


You're Most Like The Season Spring ...

Fresh faced, with a young outlook on life - you
smile at the world and expect it to smile back
at you. You're mostly a bubbly, fun - innocent
person. Described as cute possibly. However,
you're a little naive about things and tend to
be a little too trustworthy.
As the first season, It Makes you the youngest -
and so most immature - but people are inclined
to look out for and protect you.

Well done... You're the most fun of the seasons :)


?? Which Season Are You ??
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got back from trg some time ago. trg today was pretty screwed up cos my ankle was hurting again. now my mom is trying to get me to go for accupuncture. argh. no way.

tuition today was pretty high as well. but this time itz Alison's fault not mine. haha. how crazy can we get man.

well chal got in chinese high as he hoped for. n he kenna dragged into gymnastics. man u shld have seen his face. n he really doesnt look like sec 1. he still looks like the pri 3 chal. haha. then we got pretty excited too. k nvm. the statements dun really link. forget it.

havent touched my physics at all. die. havent done chinese bk review. die. havent studied chem. die. argh. how am i going to survive sec 4 man.

listening to oregon now. nice song.

aching all over again. argh. trying to crack my back. k nvm. i'm just talking nonsense here. nvm. shall go do smth else. bye.

I dun believe it. pple putting "hate tags" on my blog again. yin1 hun2 bu2 san4. not that I care. hmm.

Tuition today was extremely "high". met Kenneth on the way there. actually I din recognize him at that time. haha. then tuition today me n Alison just went crazy n we kept laughing n laughing during Chem until the whole class was roaring with laughter. esp the part abt the leather thing n how prada uses lizard skin? then Alison said the reason y prada stuff is so ex is bcos u need a lot of lizards. k so she meant household lizard. so I said that the pple must be really eng2 to stand at walls n ambush lizards. nvm. then I told her the most impt factor is that (since Mr Yee said they breed lizards) itz very hard to skin a tiny lizard. then I guess I said that pretty loudly, so the whole class just started laughing. haha. never felt so high for quite long liao.

Trg tmr!! yay. but I forgot almost everything in chang2 quan2 already. eeks. hope lao shi doesnt kill me. oh yar. dreamt of Wan Yi n Ren Jie yesterday. dreamt that they came for trg n Wan Yi could do cartwheels n backflips very quickly. n Ren Jie could jump like 1 metre up? yikes. how scary.

well. let's hope I've finally got the time zone rite. crap. k. Christmas eve today. erm. Christmas tmr. erm. erm. Merry Christmas? bah. my cousin gave me a notebk. then I was like "itz a notebk." then he said "HEY... itz a VASACE notebook OK. itz BRANDED." so I replied "but u can't deny the fact itz still a notebook rite?" ok fine nvm. I dun have much erm "craving" for branded stuff. branded or not, itz still a notebk. hehz.

then the tang1 yuan2s were a bit erpz. dunno who cooked it. think it was my cousin. well the cook (whoever it was) put a hell lot of ginger into it. n I nearly choked to death cos the smell was too strong. n the soup was orange bcos there was too much ginger. eek. then the tang1 yuan2s no filling one. :(

but it was real nice to see my grandpa again. yay. then my 3 lovely cousins came down. as usual, their greetings were classic.
Aunt: mei2 you3 jiao4 ren2 ah? (ie. never greet ur elders ah?)
Royston: ah gong.
Marcus: ah gong.
Samuel: ah gong.
Aunt: san1 gu1 ma1 leh? (ie. 3rd aunt [my mom])
Royston: san gu ma.
Marcus: san gu ma.
Samuel: san gu ma.
then when they went home...
Aunt: oi where r ur manners?
Royston: byeeeee ah gong.
Marcus: byeeeee ah gong.
Samuel: byeeeee ah gong.
Aunt: OI. still got who else?
Royston: byebyeeeee san gu ma.
Marcus: byebyeeeeee san gu ma.
Samuel: byebyeeeee san gu ma.
All 3: byebye ninja!
ok erpz. ninja is my ah gong's maid. n she's called minda. not ninja. demmit.

demmit friendster died on me again. tmd. ok nvm. went to the temple yesterday. for some reason couldnt really concentrate on praying. but still felt more at peace when I left. once Christmas is over that means my ahem ahem's bdae is just arnd the corner. 1st jan. trying to think up of excuses not to go already. hope my dad doesnt scold me. cos every yr I use similar excuses. n most of the time they dun work. argh. but i really dun wanna go. so sian. go there n stone.

aniwae. gtg now. still got tons of work to do. merry christmas n happy new yr everyone. thx ruth n lydia for ur christmas greeting. loveya. :)

ok friendster is screwed up. either that or my com is. sh*t. finally got the brass quintet score. thx kelly. :) going to my grandpa's house soon. dong1 zhi4 today. yep. got tang1 yuan2s to eat. yum. eeks. argh there goes my diet. sucks.

trg yesterday was really very "work out". very long never felt so tired after warm ups n ti4 tui3s. I guess I went a bit nuts la. took the pace of class to a very high speed. cos the courts were wet. so we used half court instead of full. so I separated our very small class into 2 rows n made everyone do very fast? so not much time to rest so everyone just died. sh*t. then I screwed up chang2 quan2 completely. I finally realize y I can't do the first 2 movements. cos I started on the wrong leg. haish. all our other tao4 lu4s start with left leg. then this one start with right leg. then I will instinctively move my left leg first. hence it'll be wrong. n no one realized. wth.

watched International Varsity Debates repeat telecast yesterday. Hwang Chih Chung is my new idol. I crush him. He rocks. but pity Shih Hsin lost to Sun Yat-sen. 930 : 931. 1 pt really makes a diff. bleah. k shall disappear for another few days b4 I blog again. haha.

Feeling pretty happy now. even tho' I woke up at arnd 630 in the morning with a very bad stomachache. then finally I cannot tahan n went to sit in the toilet from 700 to 730. xie4 until I felt like all my intestines also come out liao. dem pain. den nearly threw up. actually come to think of it, I was already in pain in the middle of the night. the only reason why I din go to the toilet was bcos the pain was associated with the nitemare I was having. so I erm "dismissed" it in a sense. in the end the pain was so bad it woke me up completely. argh.

Me going to the zoo with my dad tmr!! yay. yes I'm going to see ah meng tmr. yuck. oh yar I must tell u the very loser thing my dad n I did 2 yrs ago (we go zoo biannually). We were quite tired after walking for so long la. then we stopped to rest at the orang utans enclosure. of cos, the below conv was carried out in chinese.
dad: which one do u think is ah meng?
me: erm. dunno leh. forgot how ah meng look like liao.
dad: just guess lor.
me: ah meng quite old rite. then must be one of the larger orang utans.
dad: y larger?
me: COS ORANG UTANS DUN SHRINK AS THEY GET OLDER.
dad: yar hor. but got so many big ones.
me: aiyo then choose the more wrinkled looking ones lor.
dad: then got 2 leh. choose one. i guess itz the one climbing the rope ladder.
me: then i guess the other one lor. *nods*
then guess wad. we suddenly heard this very loud voice, the zookeeper. yep. he was using the kind of portable mike la. the kind u can clip onto ur clothes. smth liddat. guess wad he said.
zookeeper: ladies n gentlemen! here comes ah meng!
me: omgosh! eh dad ah meng wasnt in the enclosure at all leh. *turns arnd n pts*

yes that was real loser. considering that we were talking pretty loudly. lalala. very happy. i still miss my kelly san. aww. NO I AM NOT LES. just that I'm looking forward to seeing kelly on sat. n having trg on sunday. yay we'r learning chang2 quan2 now. very fun. just that as usual I'm still a bit gong3 abt the tao4 lu4 at this stage. oh yar speaking of which, I did another loserfied thing last trg.
me: lao3 shi1 zhe4 shi4 chang2 quan2 san1 duan4 hai2 shi4 san1 lu4?
lao shi: san1 duan4 he2 san1 lu4 shi4 tong2 yang4 de4 dong1 xi1. san1 duan4 jiu4 shi4 san1 lu4.
omgosh I felt so erpz. eek. but itz real fun. yay. gd mood at last.

OMGOSH. Kelly thx so much. thank u thank u thank u. Kelly is so nice k. it turns out that her internet not going to be disabled until next yr. so she downloaded midinotate for me n she's going to print the score out!!!!! omgosh. thx kelly. u noe when I saw Kelly sign in I was so happy I nearly cried. Kelly wad could I have done without u? thx so much. ai4 ni3 yi2 bei4 zi3. xie4 xie4 zhen1 de4 hen3 xie4 xie4 ni3. hugs. ^_^

For some reason I just feel empty all over again. no not hungry that kind of empty. emotional voidness. listening to Miss Saigon now. trying to do my chem hw. Iron. wth.

I swore to myself b4 that I wun allow myself to come here again. I've been thru' it once... I dun want to go back there again... those times of darkness... there wasnt any light at all... I tried so hard b4 I finally found the end of the seemingly never ending tunnel... I dun want to go back there again...

It took me so long b4 I could actually control my emotions n "settle down" in that sense. now I seem to be going "wild" all over again. y? does it really mean so much to me? wei4 shen3 me4 ni3 na4 me4 bu4 shou3 xin4 yong4? wei4 shen3 me4 yao4 yi1 er2 zai4, zai4 er2 san1 de4 pian4 wo3? wei4 shen3 me4 ni3 shuo1 hua4 bu4 suan4 hua4?

Why do u have to destroy my excitment n extinguish my flame of hope? n y am I so much affected by u? y do I trust pple so easily? y do pple betray my trust? maybe I shld learn to stop trusting... no one deserves it anyway... no one cares... yes I'm being very bei1 guan1 here. let me be. shut up n go away. I dun need anyone's help. not that anyone is going to offer any.

I can't believe it. I can't believe that NO ONE actually wanted to help me download midi notate so that I can print the brass quintet score. wth. I dun believe it. I really dun. maybe I'm still asleep n this a never ending nitemare. why did I EVER agree to arrange the brass quintet score. n midi notate is real screwed. the trial is over. serves me left right n centre for not coming online. now the song is incomplete. after I've tried so hard to copy the score out. y did I go n bathe. if I had perserved n finished the copying I wun be begging pple to help me download the software now. wad the shit.

I'm actually rotting online again. Finished my emaths which was surprisingly quite ez but that's just it. n I said I wanted to finish ALL my work by Monday which was yesterday. wth.

N my shoulder is giving me hell again. I am super pissed off. just got scolded by my mom over the brass quintet score. I asked her whether we could just buy the software anot. which costs $34.95 (US dollars thank u very much) n she scolded me. argh. where have all my lovely batchmates gone. y doesnt anyone try to help. ok fine maybe cos I haven't been online for quite a few days. n I've chosen a very weird time to come online. but I'm really freaking pissed.

N thinking of trg surprisingly doesnt make me feel less pissed. trg on sunday was really very nice. but I wun talk abt it now bcos I'm bloody pissed off.

Band posters due in on Saturday. does that signify the end of band break? I thought the schedule said band break ends on the 28th? or am I blind or smth. I am really enjoying my band break now. n for some reason I am NOT looking forward to going back for band prac. let me enjoy a few more days of peace also cannot isit. I dread going back to the stupid fighting cursing atmosphere of loud digusting noise (which I contribute to as well) back in sch. I dread waiting for the bus to sch. I dread facing my instrument. I dread seeing my batchmates. I dread facing Mr Oura who'll prob vomit blood when he hears my section play. I dread facing the blank faces of my jnrs. I dread trying to be nice to them n trying to get them to play properly during sectionals. I dread facing the brass quintet without the score. I dread having footdrills during dismissal n having my leg hurt so much when I bang. I dread just stoning arnd in the band rm while my batchmates talk to each other. I dread just sitting there doing nth trying to look like I'm involved in everything. I dread having siok teng n su can blocking me n I cant see Mr Oura. I dread Mr Oura scolding us for playing badly. I dread hearing bad music. I dread having my buzz stopping suddenly when I'm playing. I dread my lips hurting. I dread not being able to play during warmups. I dread having hui en going freaking fast for pieces like variants n the speed just kills the brass players. I dread not being to play well when bridget conducts. I dread having the feeling of guilt that I'm letting her down. I dread my batchmates telling me to stop fooling arnd. I dread facing my batchmates whom for some reason, I dun look forward to seeing. I really dread the end of band break. argh.

I'm still very pissed off. Someone please help me download midi notate n I'll send u the midi n u'll be nice enuf to help me print the score out. this is a last appeal. ok fine maybe I'm just being totally naive to think that anyone will help me. I'll download it on the sch com on saturday n print it. or I'll just have to work with the 5/8 of score I have at the moment. y do I still believe that pple will help. y the hell man. shall go eat dinner now. even tho' I'm not hungry. bye.

Hmm read Ling's blog just now. n Kit's n Feng Yi's n Joseph's n erm in fact everyone's la basically. hmm trying to copy the cun zai score out now. is it cun2 zai4 or chun2 zai4. bah wad's the dictionary for. I dun care. lazy to take it down to check. I'll find out some day. bah.

Ling wrote a lot la... of her talking to winnie the pooh... after reading all the "questions" that she posed... I kinda thought a lot abt it too... being in this 1st world country (we'r 1st world country rite? or maybe itz 2nd. who cares) we've kinda forgotten the very little things that bring us joy... probably cos they'r there all the time n we take them for granted... like being healthy, having a roof over our heads, having food to eat, clothes to wear, chance to study, electricity, water, having a family that loves u, being able to walk n talk n hear n see... we take all these for granted dun we. I mean just look at the way we eat. look at my jnrs.
me: eh dun waste food leh.
sec 2s: very full liao. really cant finish.
then they go take out smth else to eat. cant finish wad. very full wad. I was very disgusted I'm telling u. the only thing I din eat was the cucumber n the chicken skin. k I admit I dun dare to eat cucumber. cucumber phobia. many yrs ago I ate one n there was a dead fly on it n I nearly ate the fly as well. phobia. but honestly I hate it when pple dun finish their food. or at least 80% of wad's on their plate. the remaining 20% shld be visible fats n bones I guess.

Makes me think of all the lovely places in Singapore that we once had. the old Chinatown, the National Library, the Hougang n Yio Chu Kang from my childhood, the old building of my primary sch etc. huh one minute the government say must preserve our national heritage. n the next minute, or rather at the same time, they'r like tearing buildings from our heritage to make way for new ones. like now they'r planning to tear down Ang Mo Kio rite? wad abt the little shops there? old so wad. do they know those places hold so many beautiful memories for a lot of pple? no they don't. they dun care. they want to make money wad. wad preserve our national heritage. ur the ones who started this whole thing n yet ur tearing down almost everything of our national heritage. wad's ur fucking problem. social studies la. wad's the pt of taking social studies when ur removing the things that foster that sense of belonging. u r all fucking bastards. I dun care if u assholes find this blog. I dun care if ur reading this. u ought to know. U OUGHT TO KNOW HOW THE PEOPLE REALLY FEEL. WE DIN VOTE FOR U TO LEAD US TO SEE U TEAR DOWN THE PLACES WE LOVE OK. WHO CARES ABT TOURISTS. WAD TOURISTS WANT TO SEE IS SMTH EXOTIC SPECIAL TO OUR COUNTRY ONLY. NOT SOME SHIT HIGH RISE BUILDINGS. THEY WANT TO SEE THOSE CAN STAY IN THEIR OWN COUNTRY. u fucking bastards dun know a thing. u think ur so great? listen to this. UR NOT OK. u have no right to tear down these buildings. so wad if u own the land. u dun own the people ok. u dun own the hardship, the sweat, the tears n blood they put in to come this far.

Makes me wonder why people migrate. maybe cos there's nth left here for them to hold on to. if even the places holding their memories are gone, wad's the pt of staying? might as well go to some place where new memories can be created, N remain engraved in time. y not?

Huh charity shows. yes they'r gd. can raise money. then u go organize some wad star awards shit. n the money goes into ur own pocket. y not use this money from the calls for charity? whether or not itz for charity, pple r still going to call anyway. so y not use it for a gd cause? still say wad the people's voice matters. people write in to request for the preservation of the National Library. in the end? itz still going to be torn down rite. wad's the pt wad's the pt. there's no pt at all. the government won't listen anyway. wad they'r concerned abt is their own pockets. the money that is going to come in. huh or rather the "face" problem. mian4 zi3 wen4 ti2. we get so many foreign atheletes to play for us for wad? local atheletes not gd enuf meh. look at our table tennis team n our swim team. look at the diff in nationality. wth. our local players are much better ok. y waste money in this kind of "investments". we have many local talents k. wad's with the foreign talents thing. there r already not enuf jobs for locals ok. we dun need extra pple to come fight for jobs here. n y r they the ones getting the jobs. huh y r they held in such high esteem. when locals go overseas to be the "foreign talents", we get looked down upon. pple see us as shit. then y do we still look up to those so called better ang mohs. wad's the pt. u see them the cow dung as gold, pple see us the gold as cow dung. wad's the pt.

I dun want to stay in Marine Parade anymore. PM's land so wad. look at the kind of shit standard we have here. huh workers whole day come n dig up the road to do dunno wad shit. yr in yr out itz liddat. look at our lovely cc. the roof design is so fabulous the rain was just pour in like a waterfall n we cant train on the courts anymore. pple dun noe how to drive, pple anyhow walk super slowly n in all directions (ie cant walk str). give me a place with more standard can? even the land with opposition is more "competitive" in a sense n at least there's warmth. there's no warmth here. so wad if there's east coast park. so wad if we have the sea here to regulate the temperature. there's no warmth. smtimes it gets so freaking cold... wad's the pt.

Smtimes the world seems so ugly... too ugly... sports arent proper anymore... n I'm not talking abt drugs. the spirit just seems so different. look at silat. our oppenents just dun want to fight proper la. martial arts is abt facing ur opponent n putting in a gd fight. not kick then run away. wad kind of fighting is that? y arent pple having babies? cos there's no pt. wad for bring them into this ugly world to suffer? y are there pple starving to death everyday n at the same time pple giving dogs the best they can. dog clothes, dog food, dog "necessities". gou2 zui2 li2 tu3 bu4 chu1 xiang4 ya2. gou3 nu2 cai. all of them. y r we killing so many wild animals n plants. the world belonged to them until we took over. Mother Nature gave us her best gift, her children. y r we killing them. y do we think that we're so dem smart we can exploit the earth n her resources. y do we think "itz ok this might bring problems but we can handle it. no sweat. xiao3 shi4 yi4 zhuang1" then the hole in the ozone is getting bigger n bigger n the polar ice caps r still melting n the animals r still facing extinction n the poor r still starving n dying n the environment is still getting more n more polluted n yet the buildings n wadnot r still coming. WHY IS THAT SO.

Come to think of it, is advancing in technology really so gd? is earning more n more money all there is to life now? the world used to be a beautiful place. but it is ugly now. n is still getting uglier. technology has made life better for us. has it?