just before I fly back to Shanghai this Friday.

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recently, got obessed with the notion of making money once again. every night I toss, turn and try to sleep, sleep will elude me, my over-active imagination refusing to rest, persistently perfecting the various plans in my head but new problems will always surface, that never get fully figured out before I finally doze off from the exhaustion at 2/3 in the morning.

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went to watch Murder of the Inugami Clan with Mom yesterday. it wasn't a bad movie, even tho' they could have made the blood look more realistic. typical Kindaichi murder mystery, just that this time round itz not Kindaichi Hajime. well, it wasn't as "ÆàÃÀ" as the critic wrote in Ô籨 (must have been the overly fake blood and unappreciative audience), switching of scenes were not as smooth as I would have liked it to be, but on the whole I think it was quite good, even with all the usual old-school Japanese melodrama.

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the Beijing Olympics are over and I wonder how the Chinese are going to take it. why, even I can't take it.

(please let Wikipedia remain accessible.)

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Weixiong sent me a link to Luo Xin's blog, and after a while all the black and white photos got... depressing(?) no thatz not the word... more of... a melancholy. "the interminable drudgery of our mudane lives" was what I emailed Weixiong, but somehow... thatz not really it, not really what I feel, not exactly. the loneliness of human life perhaps? suddenly reminded of the parapara sakura movie by Aaron Kwok. maybe we're just waiting, simply waiting for that one person, one place, one... thing of colour to turn up... even as we continue in the black and white... waiting, waiting... and waiting somemore...

(who was it who told me that black is not a colour but a mere absence of light? if thatz the case and white light is a composition of the 7 colours of light, then in the midst of all the white light and absence of light, maybe we're just waiting for a... stimulus to come break up that white light... and let the absence turn into a presence... somehow.)

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anime themes are a good way to drunken the soul. forgive the drunk with a dull sense of grammar.

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if anyone is still reading this blog... then don't bother to tag while I'm in Shanghai, I won't be able to see it anyway... not that anyone would bother.

lessons start on Monday. can't believe the new sem is actually starting. so soon. too soon. but I really hope the rice in my room hasn't rotted.